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6/15/ 1:10 am
the other day i was watching the sun rise from 450 til about 6 and it was so just unbelieveable i was staring off in the east and i began to see the night clouds move out fastly as the black turned to purple and eventually it turend pinkish oragne then the clouds started to move faster and the colors faded all together east getting lighter than the west then storm clouds started coming in and i watched it slowly begin to rain to stop fastly just as if it was to rejuvienate nature as i was sitting there in the car beside keenan i just felt like it was the happiest moment of my life he was just laying there in his seat sleeping and i rubbed him as he slept not once did i close my eyes because to me he is just so beautiful and he makes me oh so happy i never want to lose that feeling he gives me i just wish everything would be ok it use to be that i wanted to escape my family to be with keenan and his mom and his sister sometimes i just felt more welcome there than i did at my own house but now everything is so different it confuses me and i cry because i just want everything to not be abnormal you know ive changed my life so much for keenan ive became to realize how pretty i can be and not be ashamed to show my body so i dont hide underneath my clothes anymore i dont hate myself anymore i just think about how lucky i am to have keenan because not only is he my boyfriend hes my bestfriend i dont ever have to not trust keenan i use to not trust him but it was only because i was paranoid hed go back to his old self i was scared hed leave me.. but since we've been together this long and weve spent every day together for 1 year 1 month and 2 days (besides the 3 months i didnt get to even say hello,or i love you) i dont ever have to worry all i have to worry about is trying to fix my ties with his family it seems so permanently broken. i just wish that they could have known how i use to be and that im trying to change my everything to make them like me but its so hopeless but my mom has realized a big change in me and shes glad that keenan has done this to me shes just so paranoid about him leaveing me and me going crazy because she knows i love him more than i ever did randy and he was my best friend for 9 long years i was foolish then and very immature but most of all i was scared i was scared no one would ever love me but i guess it was karma me meeting keenan from that awful tragedy from 8th grade to a fairy tail life with keenan

im sorry. i cant finsih.
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1/31/ 10:16 pm
the hair has been dyed
it is a black rasberry
purple tint
its ok
i guess
keenan likes it
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1/26/ 5:59 pm
alright so today after school i went to the doctor which was bosken's dad and well... the nurse takes my temp. and i had a fever that i didn't even know about so he comes in gives me my physical makes me walk like a duck then feels my neck and owww that hurt so bad so the nurse comes back and swabs my throat and i took it like a man.. but it still hurt so bad.. and 6 mins later.. he comes in and was like well it was postive for strep throat and i was like "you're just kidding right" and hes like "well could be mono" and fuck man i got strep throat meh.. that sucks and i got my birth control precripstions refilled and yea this sucks.. welp im going to take about an hour nap then go to guitar lessons.

btw new screen name: asilkbulletskiss

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1/25/ 7:13 am
i give up.
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1/23/ 10:58 am
love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly
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1/2/ 10:17 pm
[ mood | determined ]

***live journal is now pivete and no one can read it
so this is the last youll be reading of mine***

im finally decideing to put my life together.. im going to finish out this year at tville and maybe next year but im going to go back to ledford my senior year so i can graduate with all my elementary friends ya know what i mean yea might take some night or summer classes at college to catch up from what i have failed so i can graduate a semester early perhaps dmc next year im not shure just school isnt that cool for me. no more drugs for miss dee.. just drugs arent all that fun anymore they just keep causeing more problems when i finally start to get them in a straight line again they getcracked all out of porportion[sp] ive messed up a lot in my life and i didnt start to realize it til about new years eve. i just want to get things straight with my family. i love keenan and his family ive never felt comfortable around anyone elses genepool even mine so this is just akward. i love keenan the other day we kinda had a mishap and i was scared i said something i never thought id ever say but yea me and keenan are like glue and feathers or something. and the hole katie thing out of the way is like someone has pulled the 10000847538927859724758942375892743857482397894753982748972398752705 brick off my shoulders and well keenan is going to get a job with my mom and dad as soon as he can pass a drug test. and that my friends means no more drugs for keenan cause they do random drug test at b&h which is great cause its like we are finally realizeing we cant just play hacky sack all our life and bounce around from place to place on an emotional roller coaster.. this semester at school im going to try my best not to miss any school and do my best at my work cause before today ive been living life like it was nothing but a fucking trip to africa or something. im not a perfect person but im going to try my best to fix all my mistakes and prove to everyone that im a good person and that i never meant to do the things i did. and with this i leave you my good byes

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11/28/ 5:47 pm


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